I try so hard, but everytime I try, I fail. So, what's the point of even trying anymore? Then, I tell myself to give up, but even that, I don't know how to even give up. I want so hard to quit school, but I don't even know how to go about it. I guess, a failure will always be one?



Anyway, I realised that without posts, my tagboard becomes really dead as well.
Recap?

Sunday, was pretty alright. Don't really want to elaborate much though. Church was fine, and tuition was well, undescrible?


Monday, we had speech day rehearsal. Well, our class was one of the first few classes dismissed as it was our early day. We immediately ate lunch and went to the band room. Though we didn't bring up everything immediately, we helped in the end. I'm really sorry, xiangyi. I really should get my piorities right yeah. I've learnt from my mistakes. It won't happen again. We brought up all the stuff. I tried my best not to complain and stuff. But hearing people around me complain about the hardwork at bringing up the instruments really makes me wonder. One Band One Sound. Are we really one band one sound? Just simple tasks like this, and we start to complain like that? I guess, we really need to work more on our attitudes and everything towards band. It isn't an overnight thing where this kind of attitudes can change. However, at the end of everything, when we had to bring the stuff back down, I overheard juniors saying that there's no need to go up so fast, and when they went up slower, the people infront can carry all the heavy stuff, and they could just carry the lighter items back down to the band room. Sometimes, I really wonder why they even bother joining the band. It's like, we're one band, shouldn't we alll help one another to the best of our abilities? I don't know, and I guess I've no rights to critize anyone since I'm not perfect myself.

Tuesday, lessons were pretty alright. I don't know why, but everytime I want to do my chinese homework, it just puts me away. In the end, I end up staring at it, and not get anything done at all. Maybe, just maybe, it's just me. Everyone around me seems to be doing so well, balancing studies and CCA, I don't know anything anymore. I don't understand anything as well. Anyway, after that, we had band. We were supposed to have sectionals and woodwind combines. But, thanks to the school's hectic schedule, there was oral going on again. Thus we weren't supposed to play outside of the band room. I'm glad the band room's sound proof, or else, band will be cancelled, or we'll have to practice at the service road. Mrs Chua took combines, and we went through Danse Diabolique and Stand By Me. I don't know why, but the rhythms in Stand By Me, seems to be more complicated than Danse Diabolique. I guess I have to work on it, with my section as well. There's so much to do, really.

Wednesday, today. Pretty alright so far, it's A Math now, and LTB's trying to get the com on the projector. I bettter start to pay attention now? (: I'll try. But I don't know if I'll fail again. I hope band [speech day rehearsal again!] goes alright today.